unable to defend self

[supercheesegirl]

i'm so mad. i studied for my self-defense skillz test from 5 till like 7:30 last night with margaret and carra, and i knew all the moves pretty well and was helping them figure out how to do things. and this morning on the test, i was so nervous i messed up on the single wrist grab. the single wrist grab! any of you who have seen me at all since spring break have probably had a single wrist grab escape done on you. i know those really well. there's nine different ones to choose from, and i screwed it up. i also messed up on the bear hug from behind over the arms, which annoyed me. i *could've* just done the head smash, but i tried to get fancy with the finger grab because i couldn't think of anything else, and i messed up. and i didn't use any distraction techniques, either (before using an escape move, we're supposed to kick the dude or something to distract him so we can get away). and i didn't distract until, like, the last thing. i was so damned nervous. i mean, if some dude jumps me, i won't have to sit around thinking about what i could do to him--either i'll do something and get away, or i won't, but it'll be over. if i couldn't even do these moves that i know really well on this test, will i be able to do it in a life-or-death situation?