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so i'm kind of feeling sick this morning. like, tummy sick, but also kind of headachy tired and cold sick. i don't want to be sick. i think we should get the heat turned on in our apartment, even if we just put it on in the mornings, because i think wandering around in my pjs being so cold isn't good for me (i'm the first one up).
had a mostly good weekend. friday night we played some nintendo, i think. saturday we got some stuff done around the house--hung dann's tapestry in the living room, plus my rainer maria and indiana jones posters. it looks much better now. i hung up a bunch of things in my office, too, and it looks really good. i left a big space next to my desk to tape up all my rejection letters, provided i ever get a printer so i can send out my poems. and speaking of poems, when does the fall GR come out? (i was going to say, emerge, dann, but it just didn't sound right.) i hope terry doesn't forget to send me my two copies.
on saturday night i played some nintendo, ate some pizza, and went to susanna's to watch sense & sensibility. yay. i also helped her lug some scrap wood from an old piano up to her apartment so she can theoretically build some shelves out of it. crazy girl. i ended up sleeping over there on the couch because it was too late to catch the T home after the movie was over. i'm always going to take a toothbrush with me to susanna's, even if i'm just stopping by in the afternoon or something. sunday i took the T home and read susie's copy of Pride & Prejudice the whole way. i think it did me some good to dive into some Jane Austen. jorn was like, you're all reading that book that you've read like three times before, but i've only read it once before, and how many times have you played Ocarina of Time, my love? you can get on my case if i start rereading The Hero & the Crown for 800th time--no, wait, you can't. your baby loves a bunch of authors, and you gotta deal. :)
also on sunday, i went to the cambridgeside galleria for the first time. a good mall, but too many ritzy stores--i've never even SEEN a united colors of benetton store before, just the ads in the magazines. and filene's is expensive when you're not in the basement. express was having a good sale, but i couldn't find pants that fit me. sears either, and i had high hopes for sears. nothing that was remotely affordable (i don't have fifty bucks to spare on a pair of pants, sorry) would even think about fitting me. there was one pair at sears that i liked, but they were more ass-pants than work pants. and i need pants i can wear to work. i see all these women on the T going to and from work and they've got these nice officey pants that fit them really well and flare out at the bottom and look really nice. i've got one pair of pants that are so comfy they can double for pjs or yoga pants in a pinch. i need some professional looking pants. and they don't make them to fit me. it's not even that i'm that overweight--i know i'm not fat. hey, fat women can find pants that fit. fat women have lane bryant and plus sizes and stuff. but i'm not fat, and i'm not skinny and assless, so i must just be deformed or something. i totally almost cried in front of susanna and garrett yesterday after my mallwide pantganza when i showed up with absolutely no purchases. and then i had be like, yeah, still no good job either. i love my mom and my boyfriend and my roommates and my apartment, but other than that things kind of blow. i've found more occasion to cry in a month here in boston than i think i did all last semester in greensboro. and i felt so guilty eating a nice dinner last night! here i am, pantless and plump, eating my huge slice of cheesecake. i felt really weird, and i think it made me whiny all through dinner. i hate it when i'm whiny.
i should really do some work now. whateva.
had a mostly good weekend. friday night we played some nintendo, i think. saturday we got some stuff done around the house--hung dann's tapestry in the living room, plus my rainer maria and indiana jones posters. it looks much better now. i hung up a bunch of things in my office, too, and it looks really good. i left a big space next to my desk to tape up all my rejection letters, provided i ever get a printer so i can send out my poems. and speaking of poems, when does the fall GR come out? (i was going to say, emerge, dann, but it just didn't sound right.) i hope terry doesn't forget to send me my two copies.
on saturday night i played some nintendo, ate some pizza, and went to susanna's to watch sense & sensibility. yay. i also helped her lug some scrap wood from an old piano up to her apartment so she can theoretically build some shelves out of it. crazy girl. i ended up sleeping over there on the couch because it was too late to catch the T home after the movie was over. i'm always going to take a toothbrush with me to susanna's, even if i'm just stopping by in the afternoon or something. sunday i took the T home and read susie's copy of Pride & Prejudice the whole way. i think it did me some good to dive into some Jane Austen. jorn was like, you're all reading that book that you've read like three times before, but i've only read it once before, and how many times have you played Ocarina of Time, my love? you can get on my case if i start rereading The Hero & the Crown for 800th time--no, wait, you can't. your baby loves a bunch of authors, and you gotta deal. :)
also on sunday, i went to the cambridgeside galleria for the first time. a good mall, but too many ritzy stores--i've never even SEEN a united colors of benetton store before, just the ads in the magazines. and filene's is expensive when you're not in the basement. express was having a good sale, but i couldn't find pants that fit me. sears either, and i had high hopes for sears. nothing that was remotely affordable (i don't have fifty bucks to spare on a pair of pants, sorry) would even think about fitting me. there was one pair at sears that i liked, but they were more ass-pants than work pants. and i need pants i can wear to work. i see all these women on the T going to and from work and they've got these nice officey pants that fit them really well and flare out at the bottom and look really nice. i've got one pair of pants that are so comfy they can double for pjs or yoga pants in a pinch. i need some professional looking pants. and they don't make them to fit me. it's not even that i'm that overweight--i know i'm not fat. hey, fat women can find pants that fit. fat women have lane bryant and plus sizes and stuff. but i'm not fat, and i'm not skinny and assless, so i must just be deformed or something. i totally almost cried in front of susanna and garrett yesterday after my mallwide pantganza when i showed up with absolutely no purchases. and then i had be like, yeah, still no good job either. i love my mom and my boyfriend and my roommates and my apartment, but other than that things kind of blow. i've found more occasion to cry in a month here in boston than i think i did all last semester in greensboro. and i felt so guilty eating a nice dinner last night! here i am, pantless and plump, eating my huge slice of cheesecake. i felt really weird, and i think it made me whiny all through dinner. i hate it when i'm whiny.
i should really do some work now. whateva.
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Date: 2003-10-06 10:29 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2003-10-06 05:07 pm (UTC)From:the GR is in the office, i think.