hair

[supercheesegirl]

okay, the great haircut? not so great. it looked *so good* on saturday. it was prefect, and cute, and exactly what i wanted. then yesterday i didn't do anything with it because i just sat around the house all day, but it still looked pretty good for post-drunk after-party hair. then this morning i took a shower and afterwards, i rubbed some gel in it, had some breakfast, and then went back in the bathroom to dry and style it. part of the problem, i think, is that the bathroom mirror is all fogged up in the morning so i can't see a damn thing, and there's no other mirror in the house where i can plug in my hairdryer. so i dry my hair, right, and i've even got the round brush thing going on, but i guess because i had breakfast it was a little dry to begin with, and then it dried really fast and i didn't have much chance to work with it? so in the back one side was flipping up cutely and the other side was sticking out like straw. and i thought i had the bangs going okay but then just now in the ladies room at work i discover they're doing the horrid wave thing that my hair always does. and it's not just the bangs, it's the whole right side of my head participating in the wave here. somehow linda on saturday got it to be totally straight and cute and it stayed that way even after i slept on it. and the bangs also look kind of greasy because i put gunk in them to help hold them off to the side, which they're not doing anyway. and linda even said to do that. i am heartbroken and ready to cry. i want to go home and put a bag over my head. i don't even really know what to do in my routine to make it so that this doesn't happen again--i mean, the bathroom mirror is going to be fogged up in the morning, that's just the way bathroom mirrors are. next time i will dry my hair right after the shower so it doesn't have time to start doing anything weird, but i'm still really worried that it's always going to do this. if i can't get it right in the next few days i think i'll call linda and ask for advice. but dude, the next few days are really unimportant compared to the shame i'm feeling right now. i want to hide under my desk. and if it's this bad now, what's it going to be like when i have to wear a hat because it's cold out? i hate myself everything.

-edit - note to the new people on my friends list: sorry you're joining me at a miserable moment. i'm usually not this manic. i don't think.

Comments

[justfortoday.livejournal.com]

ok:
a: don't panic (yet!). i've suffered through more than 34495 haircuts that looked great the day they were cut. and then. (at least 3/4 of them were signifigantly improved within one week).
b: this also applies to hair colour (should this ever become an option for you).
c: i've hear marvelous things about the salon you went to. i.e: they will generally correct anything that you're not entirely satisfied with.
d: post a picture and i'll decide.

[supercheesegirl.livejournal.com]

thanks. i have calmed a bit since writing that and i'm going to work on it for a few days before i get upset again.

maybe i will get dann to take a picture of me. although it just goes against the grain to have a picture taken when you're not feeling at your best, you know? :)

[sleepyworm.livejournal.com]

rox...are you ok? lately it seems like it only takes a little bit to sink you into heartbroken oblivion. This hair thing is something you can work on! It's not like your hair is broken. You just need to learn how to manipulate it. Don't just give up and feel like a failure without giving it more effort, ok?

I love you...

[sarahpender.livejournal.com]

I always have to blow-dry the mirror before I begin, just so I can see something.

Hair cooperation can definitely affect my mood...

[supercheesegirl.livejournal.com]

does that work? i've been wiping it off with tissues or washcloths, but it's still streaky and hard to see. when i had long hair, it was easier because i didn't need to see it to know it looked the same. i didn't blow dry it either.

[sarahpender.livejournal.com]

It works for me. The hot air removes the water droplets and fog from the mirror altogether.

[supercheesegirl.livejournal.com]

i will try that tomorrow morning. thank you!

[supercheesegirl.livejournal.com]

we'll talk more later, but yeah, the self-esteem, not so great lately. between the unemployable skilless thing and the overweight, badly coiffed, unfashionable thing, i'm not really happy overall. so it doesn't take much to plunge me into moments of despair, i guess. and *helpless*, like there's nothing i can do about any of it. can't lose weight, can't get a job so can't afford new shoes, can't fix a bad hair day because i can't throw it back in a ponytail anymore. i was so happy on saturday, too, i felt like if my hair was cute things would be better. (so when my hair's not cute, there's no possibility of better?) i don't know. i'll see you tonight.