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So the party tonight was pretty fun, but no one seemed to like my jello. I worked so hard hard on it, you know? I didn’t know if the gummi fish thing was going to work, so I did a rough draft yesterday with peach jello, and then I spent all afternoon today checking on the jello to see if it was solidified enough to drop fish into, and then checking back to make sure the fish didn’t sink, etc. and I brought it out at the party tonight and several people were like, ooh jello! And some people were like, oh how clever. And I had some, and so did christian and emily’s sister and rhett and probably like two other people, but when I went past a little later there was an ear of corn in the jello. An entire ear of corn. Jorn took it out and tossed it for me, but it was still tainted, you know? And by the end of the night, 3/4 of the jello was still in the bowl, half liquid, and the fish were all bloated and disgusting-looking. No wonder no one wanted any. So I feel all sad about the jello.
Otherwise it was a decent party. I met a bunch of the new people, my favorites being ezra (who I commiserate with, because he gets people trying to be “better than” him all the time) and Tom, two new first year poets. They are both just the kind of boys I would have dated in an earlier part of my life. And I spent several hours just sitting around talking to them and xina and emily and rhett and sunshine and dan. And it was cool. Jorn left kind of early, but he was very sweet and told me that I shouldn’t leave the party just because he was leaving, and then xina was giving him a fan so she gave him a ride, which I felt bad about but she did come back then, and we all talked for a long long time.
But I still feel kind of depressed. I’m worried about this semester, and besides which I have that vaguely guilty feeling that I get sometimes. I don’t even know why I feel vaguely guilty, which is the worst part, because then I can’t make it go away. Maybe because I was putting on the party persona? I don’t know. Whateva. Grumpgrumpgrump.
Otherwise it was a decent party. I met a bunch of the new people, my favorites being ezra (who I commiserate with, because he gets people trying to be “better than” him all the time) and Tom, two new first year poets. They are both just the kind of boys I would have dated in an earlier part of my life. And I spent several hours just sitting around talking to them and xina and emily and rhett and sunshine and dan. And it was cool. Jorn left kind of early, but he was very sweet and told me that I shouldn’t leave the party just because he was leaving, and then xina was giving him a fan so she gave him a ride, which I felt bad about but she did come back then, and we all talked for a long long time.
But I still feel kind of depressed. I’m worried about this semester, and besides which I have that vaguely guilty feeling that I get sometimes. I don’t even know why I feel vaguely guilty, which is the worst part, because then I can’t make it go away. Maybe because I was putting on the party persona? I don’t know. Whateva. Grumpgrumpgrump.
