for once, I can be happy about weddings

[supercheesegirl]

(continued from the end of the last post, because I ended up on a completely different and long-winded train of thought)

Thursday night, I'm cooking dinner because Mom has a late meeting at school (I'm making the honey mustard salmon), and Saturday Laur's going to go with me to see Tom's band play downtown. I might get to meet up with T&A on Sunday for dinner or something, which would rock, and Laur & Rose & co. are talking about starting up our series of "Sex and the City brunches" (Rose is so excited about this idea now that I'm back in PA) with a really nice brunch on Sunday morning to celebrate Missi's engagement.

I guess I didn't mention that--Missi and Mike finally got engaged! So now I get to be in TWO weddings next year! (I should clarify, Missi hasn't mentioned bridesmaids at all yet, but considering we've been good friends since we were 8 and that she doesn't have a lot of close girlfriends in NYC, and Mike has no sisters, I think it's likely.) And I know being a bridesmaid sucks but I've never gotten to do it before, even though I'm always hauling my ass up and down the east coast to go to somebody's wedding, so I'm excited. And Amy's wedding will even be local for me! I've never been to a friend's wedding that was local before. AND I get to be a bridesmaid. I could just pee, I'm so happy.

It's funny--now that I'm single, I can get excited about weddings again. For a long time weddings were torturous because they represented all this stuff I couldn't have, and going to a wedding almost always resulted in a flare-up of the "what about the future" conversation with Jorn, and it was upsetting and stressful and really sad and I cried a lot. But now, it's completely not an issue. Things with Jorn aren't hanging over my head anymore, so I can just go to someone's wedding and celebrate with them and enjoy myself and have fun at the party. I really had a great time at both the weddings I went to this month, and that was so refreshing and different! It's nice not to be carrying that pain around. It was heavier than I thought.

Similarly, I currently know seven different pregnant women and two with newborns. Which is INSANE. (Jorn, the pregnant women include Angie, who is so freakin' cute, and Brandon's Jennifer again, and horrible Melissa, and Nina if you remember her.) I'm not going to list off the others, because several of them are still keeping it quiet till they're further along and you probably don't know them anyway, but I can actually be excited about this for them. Well, except for Melissa, because I honestly hate her, but I can be excited for all the others. And yesterday--I visited Joanna Chancellor and saw her beautiful son Connor. He's two weeks old. So little! I didn't even know what to do with him. I can reasonably expect to spend a bunch of time with her, though, now that I live here, so hopefully I'll learn more baby stuff and won't have to be terrified of babies anymore. Unlike our poor dog, who really is terrified of babies and is unlikely to ever get comfortable with them.

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[sleepyworm.livejournal.com]

wait, which person was angie? It's been long enough that some of the names are crossing in my head. Was she the awesome woman that went with us to the beach, and chewed out the pizza dude that gave us the burned pizza? Well, whoever that was, she was so great.

And I feel so bad for the future kid of Melissa. Poor thing's gonna have issues.

And I'm so sorry for all the pain I caused you. :(

[supercheesegirl.livejournal.com]

Angie of Angie and Jake, with the silvery hair. She was definitely on that beach trip, and I think I remember her chewing out the pizza guy. And she and Jake helped us move you from that awful apartment to your storage unit. And she is so great. Their kid is going to be hella pretty!

Yeah, me too. I still can't believe she and Adam are still together. He's so... nice.

We did it to each other, sweetzor. I don't regret any of the time we spent together. *hug*

Did you get my text message this weekend? I realized after I sent it that it might not have made sense, but from my end, you told me about a ride called Shark Attack, so my first response was to wonder whether you had watched out and washed your back. :)

[sleepyworm.livejournal.com]

yes, I did get the text message, and I got the joke. :) I was just running around like crazy and I didn't get a chance to respond.

And yeah, that is the person I was thinking of, with the silver hair. I always thought she was so cool, like cool enough that I felt uncool around her.